Perspective: Reflecting on the Psalms (Part 2)

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Reflecting on the Psalms
(Part 2)

For God alone my soul waits in silence,
for my hope is from him.
He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be shaken.
On God rests my deliverance and my honor;
my mighty rock, my refuge is in God.

Psalm 62:5-7 (NRSV)

This is my Father's world
O let me ne'er forget
That though the wrong seems oft so strong
God is the Ruler yet

From "This Is My Father's World" by Maltbie D. Babcock

Previously, I mentioned that, during a recent discussion about the Psalms with my Sunday school class, I recommended praying the Psalms, because they cover a wide range of emotions and experiences.  For a number of years, I had not spent much time reflecting on the Psalms, though I did sometimes incorporate them into my morning prayer time.  After that Sunday school meeting, I decided to continue reflecting on the Psalms, as I did when preparing for the class discussion.  I've pondered what might have been happening in the psalmists' lives and considered how I can relate.


Psalm 86

One psalm I encountered recently is the eighty-sixth psalm, which is described as "a prayer of David."¹  David is the shepherd, musician, poet, and military leader who eventually becomes the most beloved king of Israel.  The psalm begins,

Incline your ear, O Lord, and answer me,
for I am poor and needy.
Preserve my life, for I am devoted to you;
save your servant who trusts in you.
You are my God; be gracious to me, O Lord,
for to you do I cry all day long.²

It is not clear exactly what is going on that inspires David to compose this psalm, but what is clear is that his life is in danger.  He goes on to pray,

O God, the insolent rise up against me;
a band of ruffians seeks my life,
and they do not set you before them...
Show me a sign of your favor,
so that those who hate me may see it and be put to shame,
because you, Lord, have helped me and comforted me.³

In the First and Second Books of Samuel, we read that David lives a dangerous life.  After David is anointed to be the next king of Israel,⁴ he defeats a giant named Goliath in battle.⁵  He is then made a military leader, and he leads the Israelite army to victory in numerous battles.⁶  Going into battle against one's people's enemies is a dangerous job, but the situations that seem to distress David the most involve people who should not be his mortal enemies.  As he grows in popularity with the people, the current king becomes paranoid and begins trying to kill him.⁷  As a result, he ends up spending a lot of time evading the king and his soldiers.⁸  Later on, after David becomes king, one of his own sons tries to overthrow him.⁹

As David begs God for help, he praises God.  He prays,

For you, O Lord, are good and forgiving,
abounding in steadfast love to all who call on you.¹⁰

David goes on to pray,

There is none like you among the gods, O Lord,
nor are there any works like yours.
All the nations you have made shall come
and bow down before you, O Lord,
and shall glorify your name.
For you are great and do wondrous things;
you alone are God.¹¹

David echoes words that are repeated throughout the Hebrew scriptures,¹² praying,

But you, O Lord, are a God merciful and gracious,
slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness.¹³

There are times when I've wondered, if God is indeed as loving, gracious, and merciful as David proclaims in this psalm, then why would one have to beg God to act in loving, gracious, and merciful ways, as David seems to do.  Now I'm starting to wonder if maybe David is reminding himself of God's goodness as he waits for God to act.

I have never experienced the kind of danger David experienced in his life, so I can only relate to this psalm to an extent.  Ever since the pandemic, life has seemed a lot more dangerous than it seemed previously, and there have been times when I prayed to God for protection.  There are people in this world who can relate to this psalm a lot more than I can relate to it.  For example, there are refugees who have fled extremely dangerous situations.  This psalm can be a reminder to pray for people who are facing mortal danger.


Psalm 62

Another psalm I encountered recently is the sixty-second psalm, which also attributed to David.¹⁴  Once again, it is not clear what is happening in his life that inspires him to write this psalm, but one can make some guesses based on his story and the subject matter of the psalm.  The psalm begins,

For God alone my soul waits in silence;
from him comes my salvation.
He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall never be shaken.¹⁵

This proclamation is repeated almost word-for-word later in the psalm.¹⁶

David is evidently embroiled in conflict with the people around him.  Rhetorically, he asks,

How long will you assail a person,
will you batter your victim, all of you,
as you would a leaning wall, a tottering fence?
Their only plan is to bring down a person of prominence.
They take pleasure in falsehood;
they bless with their mouths,
but inwardly they curse.¹⁷

Once again, I can only relate to this psalm to an extent.  I don't have the kind of clout David has, so I haven't experienced the kind of opposition he is facing.  That said, I regularly witness people's cruelty when I scroll through the cesspool formerly known as Twitter.  Social media in general seems to be rife with people who are eager to bring people down, even if it means trafficking in falsehoods.

David takes refuge in God, and he urges others to do the same.  He proclaims,

Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your heart before him;
God is a refuge for us.¹⁸

It is all too clear to David that the only security to be found is in God, because the people around him are not trustworthy.

The psalm ends on a hopeful note.  David proclaims,

Once God has spoken;
twice have I heard this:
that power belongs to God,
and steadfast love belongs to you, O Lord.
For you repay to all
according to their work.¹⁹

David has put his faith in God.  Though there is so much wrong with the world around him, he is confident that God is faithful and loving and that God will someday set all things right.


These two psalms of David have similar themes, because they were both inspired in times of danger or conflict.  They both invite us to take refuge in God.  The eighty-sixth psalm encourages us to turn to God for help and protection in times of trouble, and the sixty-second psalm encourages us not to despair when the state of the world brings us down but to trust in the God who sets all things right.  God is good, even when life is hard.


Notes:

1. From the superscription to Psalm 86 (NRSV)
2. Psalm 86:1-3 (NRSV)
3. Psalm 86:14, 17 (NRSV)
4. 1 Samuel 16:1-13
5. 1 Samuel 17
6. 1 Samuel 18:5
7. 1 Samuel 18:6-11
8. 1 Samuel 19-31
9. 2 Samuel 15-18
10. Psalm 86:5 (NRSV)
11. Psalm 86:8-10 (NRSV)
12. See Exodus 34:6, Nehemiah 9:17, Psalm 145:8, Joel 2:13, and Jonah 4:2.
13. Psalm 86:15 (NRSV)
14. From the superscription to Psalm 62
15. Psalm 62:1-2 (NRSV)
16. Psalm 62:5-6
17. Psalm 62:3-4 (NRSV)
18. Psalm 62:8 (NRSV)
19. Psalm 62:11-12 (NRSV)

Re David was painted by Valentin de Boulogne around 1626.

Perspective: Reflecting on the Psalms (Part 1)

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Reflecting on the Psalms
(Part 1)

My soul thirsts for God,
for the living God.
When shall I come and behold
the face of God?

Psalm 42:2 (NRSV)

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Where can I go from your spirit?
Or where can I flee from your presence?

Psalm 139:7 (NRSV)

I will swim in the deep
'Cause You'll be next to me
You're in the eye of the storm
And the calm of the sea
You're never out of reach

God, You know where I've been
You were there with me then
You were faithful before
You'll be faithful again
I'm holding Your hand

From "Let the Waters Rise" by MIKESCHAIR

As you may or may not know, I am one of the two leaders of my Sunday school class.  I say that I am a leader of the class as opposed to a teacher because our meetings are discussion-driven.  Though my job is primarily to facilitate class discussions, sometimes I cannot suppress my urge to teach.  I suppose such instances cannot be avoided, since my two primary spiritual gifts are knowledge and teaching.

The last time I led the class, we discussed an article about whether 2023 was a good year or a bad year.  Our curriculum for the week included passages from the Psalms, and, as I prepared for class, I found myself wanting to discuss the Psalms in general.  The Psalms are essentially the ancient Hebrew hymnal and prayer book.  They are an important part of not only Jewish liturgy but also Christian liturgy.  In fact, the Psalms are sometimes included in Christian hymnals, like the one published by my denomination, and in Christian prayer books, like the Anglican Communion's Book of Common Prayer.

I recommended the praying of the Psalms to my Sunday school class, because they cover a wide range of emotions and experiences.

Psalm 42

One of the psalms my class discussed that Sunday is the forty-second psalm, which is described as "a Maskil of the Korahites."¹  The word maskil is thought to mean "wise saying,"² so evidently there is something instructional about this psalm.  The Korahites, who served in the temple, were descendants of Moses' cousin Korah.  Eleven of the Psalms are attributed to them.³

In the forty-second psalm, the psalmist expresses a longing for God.  He begins,

As a deer longs for flowing streams,
so my soul longs for you, O God.
My soul thirsts for God,
for the living God.
When shall I come and behold
the face of God?⁴

The psalmist compares his longing for God to the thirst of an animal.  To experience thirst is to experience dehydration, a deficiency of water within the body.  A person who experiences a longing for God experiences a perceived absence of God.

The psalmist continues,

My tears have been my food
day and night,
while people say to me continually,
"Where is your God?"⁵

It seems to me that the psalmist is struggling with depression.  Evidently he feels as though people are mocking him.  As someone who goes through bouts of depression, I know that depression can distort one's perceptions of reality.  It can even make people feel as though God has abandoned them.

In this psalm there is a repeated refrain.  The psalmist says to himself,

Why are you cast down, O my soul,
and why are you disquieted within me?
Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,
my help and my God.⁶

One commentator describes this repeated refrain, as "an inner monologue... by which the psalmist reminds himself to keep waiting for God's salvation."⁷  The psalmist might be depressed, and he might feel as though God is far away, but he is not giving up on God.


Psalm 139

Interestingly, on the same Sunday my class discussed a psalm about a perceived absence of God, the Psalm prescribed by the Revised Common Lectionary was the one hundred thirty-ninth psalm, which all about God's closeness.  Like many of the Psalms, this one is attributed to David,⁸ a shepherd, poet, musician, and military leader who became the most famous king of Israel.

David begins his prayer,

O Lord, you have searched me and known me.
You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
you discern my thoughts from far away.
You search out my path and my lying down,
and are acquainted with all my ways.
Even before a word is on my tongue,
O LORD, you know it completely.⁹

God knows everything there is to know about a person - everything a person has ever done, everything a person has ever said, and everything a person has ever thought.  Nothing about us is hidden from God.

David goes on to pray,

Where can I go from your spirit?
Or where can I flee from your presence?
If I ascend to heaven, you are there;
if I make my bed in Sheol [the grave], you are there...
If I say, "Surely the darkness shall cover me,
and the light around me become night,"
even the darkness is not dark to you;
the night is as bright as the day,
for darkness is as light to you.¹⁰

We cannot hide anything from God, and we cannot hide from God.  There is nowhere a person can go, in this world or beyond this world, to escape God's presence.  Wherever a person goes, God will already be there.

David then prays,

For it was you who formed my inward parts;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works;
that I know very well.¹¹

It only makes sense that God would know each of us so completely, since God is our Creator.  God created each of us meticulously and intentionally.  Each of us is, in the words of Christine Yi Suh, "made uniquely and perfectly to reflect the image of God."¹²

With knowledge of God comes humility.  David prays,

How weighty to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
I try to count them - they are more than the sand;
I come to the end - I am still with you.¹³

God fully understands each of us; however, none of us will ever fully comprehend God.  It is important to remember that God is God and that we are not.

David expresses his utter disdain for evildoers¹⁴ and then prays that God would purge him of evil.  He closes his prayer,

Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my thoughts.
See if there is any wicked way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.¹⁵

I think there is a beautiful irony in the closing of this psalm.  David hates evil so much that he wants God to purge him of it, but, for him, to be purged of evil will mean trading his wishes that evildoers are destroyed for prayers for their redemption.  As God says through one ancient prophet, "I have no pleasure in the death of the wicked, but that the wicked turn from their ways and live."¹⁶


These two psalms highlight what I wanted to teach my Sunday school class, that the Psalms cover a wide range of emotions and experiences.  The forty-second psalm acknowledges that there will be times in our lives when, for some reason, we feel that God is far away, and it encourages us to trust in God despite how we feel.  The one hundred thirty-ninth psalm reminds us that there will be times when we realize how close God truly is - one might say, inescapably close.  The life of faith has both mountaintops and valleys, and the Psalms help us to pray in both.


Notes:

1. From the superscription to Psalm 42 (NRSV)
2. Wikipedia: "Psalms"
3. Wikipedia: "Korahites"
4. Psalm 42:1-2 (NRSV)
5. Psalm 42:3 (NRSV)
6. Psalm 42:5-6a, 11 (NRSV)
7. Joel B. Green, William H. Willimon, et al.  The Wesley Study Bible (NRSV).  2009, Abingdon Press.  p. 683
8. From the superscription to Psalm 139
9. Psalm 139:1-4 (NRSV)
10. Psalm 139:7-8, 11-12 (NRSV)
11. Psalm 139:13-14 (NRSV)
12. Christine Yi Suh.  Forty Days on Being a Four.  2021, IVP.  p. 64
13. Psalm 139:17-18 (NRSV)
14. Psalm 139:19-22
15. Psalm 139:23-24 (NRSV)
16. Ezekiel 33:11 (NRSV)

The photograph of the open Bible was taken by Lynn Greyling, and it has been released to the public domain.  The photographer is in no way affiliated with this blog.

Introspection: Goals Unmet and Lessons Learned

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Goals Unmet and Lessons Learned

I hereby command you: Be strong and courageous; do not be frightened or dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.

Joshua 1:9 (NRSV)

I will dedicate and sacrifice my everything
For just a seconds worth of how my story's ending
And I wish I could know if the directions that I take
And all the choices that I make won't end up all for nothing

From "Crawling in the Dark" by Hoobastank

In years past, as New Year's Eve drew near, I made it a point to look back on the past year to see where I have been and to consider where I might be heading.  In recent years, with all that has happened, I haven't really wanted to spend much time looking back at the end of the year.  All that said, I'm starting to think that some sort of healing might have happened within me, though I'm not exactly sure how it happened.  This year, I did not experience the anxiety and bitterness I typically experience during the holiday season, and, in the last few days, I found myself actually wanting to look back on the past year.

As I looked back over the introspections I've written this year, I noticed a few recurring themes.

In January, I spent some time looking back at how God seemingly led me out of a job that brought me a lot of shame and led me to my current job in which I can actually take pride.  I concluded that, though I no longer feel the same joy I felt when I first accepted my current job and though my job has recently become a bit more stressful, I still have a lot of reasons to be grateful for it.  Then, in February, I confessed that, despite the fact that my job is not a bad fit for me, for various reasons I actually don't like being associated with computers.

In September, I confessed that I had made little progress toward achieving my New Year's resolution.  Reaching this goal might have resulted in a significant change in my life, especially regarding my career.  As the year went on, I became less and less certain that it was the right action for me to take.  Truth be told, I've become less and less certain I ought to be doing a number of things I'm currently doing.  I did not achieve my goal, but I can still work toward it next year if I discern that I should do so.

Simply put, this year I've been wrestling with my identity and my purpose in life.

In April, I shared my reflections from Easter.  Years ago, I thought my life was headed in a particular direction, but some real or perceived mistakes on my part caused me to abandon that path.  On Easter Sunday, as I read about the Resurrection of Christ and the commissioning of the Disciples,¹ I realized that, in the same way that the Disciples' abandoning Jesus when He was arrested didn't nullify the Disciples' calling, my own mistakes don't nullify my own calling.  All that said, a lot has happened since that time in my life, and I do not think I actually want to continue on that particular path.

In October, after writing a sermon and a number of perspectives on forgiveness, I realized that, regarding the aforementioned "real or perceived mistakes" I had made, I need to own my actions, whether they were right or wrong, and to stop blaming the people who put me into the difficult situations that led to those actions.  I suppose that, if my mistakes don't nullify my identity or my purpose, it is safe for me to confront what I've done.

In May, on Pentecost Sunday, I shared some reflections on an Ascension Sunday sermon I've preached a number of times in the past.  In my sermon, I suggest that the Disciples might have been feeling a bit bewildered or lost when they watched their Teacher rise into the sky and vanish into the clouds.²  I realized that I was projecting my own feelings onto the Disciples, comparing their "graduation" from discipleship to my own graduation from college.  I also realized that, in the same way that the Ascension of Christ wasn't the end of the best part of the Disciples' lives, my graduation wasn't necessarily the end of the best part of my life.  God can do some amazing things through my life going forward, in the same way that God did amazing things through the Disciples' lives.

In August, I realized that I had been misreading a story from the Book of Genesis about the birth of a person with whom I share a name.³  I realized that my middle name Benjamin does not mean "son of my pain," as I had previously thought.  My middle name actually has connotations of fortune or favor.  The experience was a reminder that there is more to my life than the painful parts.

This year I was reminded once again that I need to be mindful regarding the story I'm telling myself about my life.  I should not think of my story as a tragedy; I should not think that the best parts of my story are behind me; and I should not think that I've screwed my story up beyond repair.

In June, I delivered a sermon at my church in which I shared the story of my journey into ministry as a layperson.  I went on to share more of the story, highlighting the people who believed in me and supported me over the years.  In July, when I attended a conference for work, I was scared to death that I might catch a virus and be unable to deliver the sermon I was scheduled to preach after I returned.  The fact that I didn't catch anything at the conference was a reminder that, if God calls me to do something, God will make sure that I am able to do it.

This year I was reminded that, wherever my journey takes me going forward, I can be assured that I will not journey alone.

Last month, I noted that, though I wanted to start blogging more consistently after struggling for the last few years, I had started to struggle once again.  I went so far as to hint that blogging was actually becoming somewhat burdensome for me.  I want to continue blogging, but I also want to enjoy it.  All that said, I need to take some pressure off myself, so I have decided that next year I will write one fewer blog post per month.

I do not know where the next year will take me, but I hope that, as I continue to wrestle with certain things in my life, I will remember the lessons I gleaned this year.  I want to thank you, dear reader, for letting me share some of my journey with you, and I want to wish you a happy 2024.


Notes:

1. Matthew 28:1-10, 16-20
2. Acts 1:6-11
3. Genesis 35:16-20

The photograph featured in this introspection was taken by PJ Osorio, and it has been released to the public domain.  The photographer is in no way affiliated with this blog.