Showing posts with label failure. Show all posts
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Sunday, April 16, 2023

Introspection: The Words After the Last Words

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The Words After the Last Words

Don't fear, because I am with you;
don't be afraid, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you,
I will surely help you;
I will hold you
with my righteous strong hand.

Isaiah 41:10 (CEB)


Sometimes its so hard to pray
When You feel so far away
But I am willing to go
Where you want me to
God, I trust You


From "Let the Waters Rise" by MIKESCHAIR


According to the Gospel of Matthew, shortly before Jesus breathes His last breath on the Cross, He cries out, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"1  These last words are sometimes called Jesus' "cry of dereliction."  The implication, I recently heard, is that God is, at this moment, derelict in God's duty.2  God has apparently abandoned the beloved Son with whom God was once "well pleased."3  Personally, I do not believe that Jesus was truly forsaken by God when He was crucified, but I also do not believe that the Incarnate Christ could be fully human if He had never thought, at least for a moment, that God had forsaken Him.

On most days, I read a Bible passage and spend some time reflecting on it.  On Holy Saturday, the day after Good Friday, I did not read a Bible passage.  Instead I read Friedrich Nietzsche's Parable of the Madman, in which the titular character cries out, "God is dead.  God remains dead.  And we have killed him."4  It seemed like an appropriate thing to read on the day we remember that, for a period of time, the body of the Incarnate God lay in a tomb after He was killed by the human beings He loved and came to Earth to save.

In Nietzsche's parable, nobody who can hear the madman's distraught ramblings still believes in God, but only the madman is actually grieving the loss of God.  Unlike everyone else, he understands that, if we lose our faith in God, we lose more than doctrines and dogmas.  We lose everything we had that was rooted in our faith in God, like our purpose, our hope, and our moral compass.  According to the madman, losing God is as catastrophic as untethering the Earth from the Sun and letting it drift into the darkness and emptiness of space.5  Nietzsche was not writing as a man of faith; he just understood that atheism comes at a cost.

On Holy Saturday, I spent some time looking back on my own journey of faith, wondering if my own faith in God has "died" in some way.  For a number of years I've been aware that my faith just isn't what it used to be.  That said, I don't think it was "what it used to be" for very long.

Almost fourteen years ago, God got me out of a job I hated and led me to a job in which I could take pride.  Not long after that, God called me away from a faith community in which I was feeling more and more out-of-place and led me to a new community in which I could continue to grow.  I had begun to cultivate spiritual gifts that had lain dormant within me.  At that time, there was a lot of positive movement in my life, so it was easy to believe that God had a purpose and a plan for my life.  Then I started to feel like I was repeatedly letting people down.  Maybe people expected too much of me; maybe I expected too much of myself; or maybe I'm just selfish.  I cannot always tell which case is true.  My life stagnated, and it has remained stagnant for a number of years.

Does God still have a purpose and plan for my life?

Did God ever have a purpose and plan for my life?

There have been a number of things that have shaken my faith in God, like the pandemic and other horrors that are allowed to happen in this world and the hateful behavior of many people who claim to be Christians.  What has shaken my faith the most has been my own unfaithfulness, be it real or imagined.  A big difference between Jesus and myself is that I would never have to ask why God has forsaken me, because I feel like I've given God plenty of reasons.  I cannot speak for everyone, but, as far as my own life is concerned, if anyone has been derelict in his duty, it has been I and not God.

On the morning of Easter Sunday, before I went to church, I read the account of the Resurrection in the Gospel of Matthew.  Matthew tells us that, on the Sunday morning after Jesus was crucified, two women visit Jesus' tomb.  When they arrive, a messenger of God appears and unseals the tomb so that the women can see that Jesus' body is no longer there.  The messenger tells them that Jesus has been resurrected from the dead and then instructs them to tell His disciples to meet Him in Galilee.  The women leave the tomb, and they are met by the risen Jesus himself.6

Following the women's instructions, the Disciples meet Jesus atop a mountain in Galilee.  Jesus says to them, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything that I have commanded you."7  The Disciples had all forsaken Jesus in His darkest hour,8 and at least one of them had denied even knowing Him.9  Even now some of the Disciples doubt what their eyes are seeing, but Jesus is still calling them to be His messengers, as He has prepared them to do all along.

Finally, Jesus says, "And remember, I am with you always, to the end of the age."10

These are the words I needed most this Easter.  The Good News of Easter is that the Gospel story ends not with a cry of dereliction but with a renewed calling and a promise of presence.  The failures of the Disciples did not nullify their purpose, and my own failures, whether they are real or imagined, do not nullify my purpose, whatever that happens to be.  The God who is with us on the mountaintops of life goes with us through the valleys, and God does not abandon us when we fail but rather continues to call us to our sacred purposes.


Notes:
  1. Matthew 27:45-50 (NRSV)
  2. Adam Hamilton.  "Final Words."  Church of the Resurrection, 04/02/2023.
  3. Matthew 3:17
  4. http://www.historyguide.org/europe/madman.html
  5. ibid.
  6. Matthew 28:1-10
  7. Matthew 28:16-20a
  8. Matthew 26:56b
  9. Matthew 26:69-75
  10. Matthew 28:20b
The Holy Women at the Tomb was painted by William-Adolphe Bouguereau in 1876.

Sunday, May 1, 2022

Sermon: The Rock

Delivered at Zoar United Methodist Church in Greer, South Carolina on May 1, 2022, the Third Sunday in Eastertide

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The Rock

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After these things Jesus showed himself again to the disciples by the Sea of Tiberias; and he showed himself in this way.  Gathered there together were Simon Peter, Thomas called the Twin, Nathanael of Cana in Galilee, the sons of Zebedee, and two others of his disciples.  Simon Peter said to them, “I am going fishing.”  They said to him, “We will go with you.”  They went out and got into the boat, but that night they caught nothing.

Just after daybreak, Jesus stood on the beach; but the disciples did not know that it was Jesus.  Jesus said to them, “Children, you have no fish, have you?”  They answered him, “No.”  He said to them, “Cast the net to the right side of the boat, and you will find some.”  So they cast it, and now they were not able to haul it in because there were so many fish.  That disciple whom Jesus loved said to Peter, “It is the Lord!”  When Simon Peter heard that it was the Lord, he put on some clothes, for he was naked, and jumped into the sea.  But the other disciples came in the boat, dragging the net full of fish, for they were not far from the land, only about a hundred yards off.

When they had gone ashore, they saw a charcoal fire there, with fish on it, and bread.  Jesus said to them, “Bring some of the fish that you have just caught.”  So Simon Peter went aboard and hauled the net ashore, full of large fish, a hundred fifty-three of them; and though there were so many, the net was not torn.  Jesus said to them, “Come and have breakfast.”  Now none of the disciples dared to ask him, “Who are you?” because they knew it was the Lord.  Jesus came and took the bread and gave it to them, and did the same with the fish.  This was now the third time that Jesus appeared to the disciples after he was raised from the dead.

When they had finished breakfast, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?”  He said to him, “Yes, Lord; you know that I love you.”  Jesus said to him, “Feed my lambs.”  A second time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”  He said to him, “Yes, Lord; you know that I love you.”  Jesus said to him, “Tend my sheep.”  He said to him the third time, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”  Peter felt hurt because he said to him the third time, “Do you love me?”  And he said to him, “Lord, you know everything; you know that I love you.”  Jesus said to him, “Feed my sheep.  Very truly, I tell you, when you were younger, you used to fasten your own belt and to go wherever you wished.  But when you grow old, you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will fasten a belt around you and take you where you do not wish to go.”  (He said this to indicate the kind of death by which he would glorify God.)  After this he said to him, “Follow me.”

John 21:1-19 (NRSV)


Whenever you run away
Whenever you lose your faith
It's just another stroke of
The pen on the page
A lonely ray of hope
Is all that you need
To see
A beautiful history


From “Beautiful History” by Plumb


In early 1738, John Wesley, the founder of the Methodist movement, was trudging through a season of doubt and frustration.  His ministry in the Georgia colony had been an abysmal failure.  Wesley sailed across the Atlantic with the intention of serving as a chaplain to the colonists and as a missionary to the natives – and saving his own soul in the process.  Sadly, with his strict rules and high expectations, he ended up alienating the colonists he intended to shepherd.  After he was sued for defamation of character by a former love interest – long story – he fled back to England as an utter failure.1

Wesley, who was raised in the Christian faith, had been ordained as a priest in the Church of England ten years earlier.  By the time he returned to England from the Georgia colony, he wasn't sure he had any faith at all.  At that time he became friends with a Moravian priest named Peter Boehler.  Wesley once told Boehler that he was going to stop preaching, wondering how he could possibly preach when he wasn't even sure he had any faith.  Boehler said to Wesley, “Preach faith till you have it; then, because you have it, you will preach faith.”2

I suspect that, like John Wesley, all of us are tempted to throw in the proverbial towel at times.



Toward the end of the Gospel of John, we read that, one evening, the disciple Simon, who is more commonly known as Peter, announces to six of the other disciples, “I am going fishing.”  The other disciples agree to go with him.3

At this point in the Gospel story, Jesus has been raised from the dead, after being brutally executed by crucifixion.  The Disciples have now seen Jesus alive and well twice since His resurrection.  The first time they saw Him, He suddenly appeared in the room with them, even though the door was locked, and said, “Peace be with you.”  After showing them the scars from His crucifixion, He said to them, “As the Father has sent me, so I send you.”  He then breathed on them and said, “Receive the Holy Spirit.”4  The Disciples have been commissioned by Jesus and empowered by the Holy Spirit to carry on the work Jesus started.

So why does Simon decide to go fishing?  For many of us, fishing is either a hobby or a means of getting away from the hustle and bustle of life and slowing down for a while.  For Simon, on the other hand, it was once a means of making a living.

Perhaps it would be helpful to look back on Simon's story thus far.

When Simon's brother Andrew, who had been a disciple of John the Baptist, began following Jesus, he found Simon and told him that he had just met their people's long awaited Messiah.  When Andrew took him to meet Jesus, Jesus looked at him and said, “You are Simon son of John.  You are to be called Cephas.”5  Simon began following Jesus that day.

The story of how Simon became one of Jesus' disciples is told a bit differently in the other Gospels.  In the Gospel of Luke, we read that one day, when Jesus was trying to teach a crowd on a lakeshore, people were so eager to hear Him that they weren't leaving Him any breathing room.  He boarded the boat that belonged to Simon, who was washing his nets after he spent a night unsuccessfully trying to catch fish.  At Jesus' request, Simon rowed outward a bit, and Jesus was able to teach the crowd from the boat.6

After Jesus finished teaching the crowd, he suggested that Simon row his boat out to deeper water and throw out his nets.  Still discouraged from unsuccessful night fishing, Simon reluctantly followed Jesus' suggestion.  When he threw out his nets, he had the greatest catch of his life.  He caught so many fish that his nets began to break, and he had to call his fishing partners to row out to him and help him bring the fish to shore.  They filled both of their boats so full of fish that they started to sink.  Simon fell down before Jesus and cried out, “Go away from me, Lord, for I am a sinful man!”  Jesus then said to Simon, “Do not be afraid; from now on you will be catching people.”  That day, Simon and his fishing partners became Jesus' disciples.7

Cephas, the new name Jesus gave Simon, is the Aramaic word for “rock.”  It is equivalent to the Greek word petros, from which we get the more familiar name Peter.8

The Gospel of Matthew provides us some additional insight about the significance of Simon's new name.  In it, we read that one day, after Simon and the other disciples had been following Jesus for a while, Jesus asked them, “Who do people say that the Son of Man is?”  They responded with some of the rumors that were circulating about Him at the time, that He was some prophet of old who had returned.  Jesus then asked them, “But who do you say that I am?”  Simon eagerly answered, “You are the Messiah, the Son of the living God.”  Impressed with what Simon said, Jesus gave him a new name, saying, “Blessed are you, Simon son of Jonah!  For flesh and blood has not revealed this to you, but my Father in heaven.  And I tell you, you are Peter, and on this rock I will build my church, and the gates of Hades will not prevail against it.”9

It is evident that Jesus saw something in Simon, whom He renamed Peter, that He would call him the “rock” on whom He would build His church.

It appeared to Peter that his hopes for Jesus as the Messiah were about to be realized when they entered Jerusalem shortly before the Passover festival.  The crowd met Jesus at the city gates, waving palm branches and shouting, “Hosanna!  Blessed is the one who comes in the name of the Lord – the King of Israel!”  He then found a donkey and rode it into the city.10  He looked like a king riding in a peacetime procession.

A few days later, over dinner, Jesus rather ominously told the Disciples, “Little children, I am with you only a little longer.  You will look for me; and as I said to the Jews so now I say to you, 'Where I am going you cannot come.'”11  Troubled, Peter asked Jesus, “Lord, where are you going?”  Jesus replied rather cryptically, “Where I am going, you cannot follow me now; but you will follow afterward.”  Peter said, “Lord, why can I not follow you now?  I will lay down my life for you.”  Jesus then said to Peter, “Will you lay down your life for me?  Very truly, I tell you, before the cock crows, you will have denied me three times.”12

Hours later, Peter found himself at the home of the high priest.  Jesus, who had just been arrested in a garden in front of the Disciples, was being interrogated inside, while Peter stood in the courtyard, warming himself by a charcoal fire one of the servants had made.  On his way into the courtyard, the woman at the gate asked him if he was one of Jesus' disciples.  Peter told her that he was not.13  Later on, someone else asked Peter if he was one of Jesus' disciples.  Again, he said that he was not.  Then another servant of the high priest looked at Peter and asked him if he saw him in the garden with Jesus when He was arrested.  Peter denied being there.14

At that very moment, a rooster crowed,15 reminding Peter of what Jesus told him hours earlier.

I would like to point out that Peter is not a coward.  I believe that, when he told Jesus that he would give his life for Him, he actually meant what he said.  When the soldiers and temple guards came to arrest Jesus in the garden, Peter was the first to draw his sword and start fighting back.  He even cut off the ear of one of the men sent by the high priest.16  When Peter said that he was willing to die for Jesus, he meant that he was willing to die fighting for Jesus.  He never imagined that Jesus would tell him to put away his sword.17  When that happened, the whole game changed.

I think that something besides fear motivated Peter's denial.

In the Gospel of Matthew, we read that, shortly after Jesus gave Peter his new name, He started warning him and the rest of the Disciples that “he must go to Jerusalem and undergo great suffering at the hands of the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and on the third day be raised.”18   Peter did not like what he was hearing.  As the Messiah, Jesus was supposed to be crowned king in Jerusalem.  He was then supposed to rally His people against their Roman oppressors, drive them out of the land, and restore Israel to its former glory.  Peter took Jesus aside and said to Him, “God forbid it, Lord!  This must never happen to you.”  Jesus said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan!  You are a stumbling block to me; for you are setting your mind not on divine things but on human things.”19  The rock on whom Jesus wanted to build His church was acting more like a rock that would cause Him to trip.  Jesus then said to all who would hear, “If any want to become my followers, let them deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.”20

To Peter, it was unthinkable that Jesus would surrender without a fight.  I think that maybe, when he lied and said that he was not one of Jesus' disciples, he was speaking not only out of fear but also out of disappointment, confusion, and even embarrassment.  I also think that there might have been a grain of truth in his lie.  Maybe he hadn't been following Jesus as his Messiah as much as he had been following the messiah he wanted Jesus to be.  To Peter, the Messiah was supposed to be a conquering king and not a suffering servant.  If the One he had been following was destined to serve and suffer, then what might he have to endure personally?

There is an old hymn that begins, “'Are ye able,' said the Master, 'to be crucified with me?”21  I suspect that most of us, if we were honest, would say, “Lord, we'd rather not.”

When Jesus was arrested, put on trial, and condemned to death by crucifixion, He appeared to have failed; however, when He was resurrected from the dead, He was vindicated.  The Resurrection showed Jesus' followers that Jesus really was everything He claimed to be.  He was indeed “the way, and the truth, and the life.”  He was indeed “the light of the world,” “the good shepherd,” “the bread of life,” and “the true vine.”  He was indeed “the resurrection and the life.”22  The Resurrection also vindicated the way of life Jesus demonstrated.  It assured His followers that His way – the way of self-sacrificial love – ultimately triumphs over the way of the world – the way of seizing and maintaining power through violence.

There are various theories regarding why Peter and other disciples decide to go fishing.  For example, one commentary suggests that their fishing for fish is a “living parable” that ultimately symbolizes their fishing for people.  They will find themselves unsuccessful unless they depend on Jesus and do what He has taught them to do.23  Personally, I cannot help but think that, when Peter says, “I am going fishing,” he is effectively tendering his resignation as a disciple of Jesus and returning to his former line of work.  Now that Jesus has been raised from the dead, Peter sees that he, not Jesus, was the one who failed.  “Some rock I turned out to be,” he might be thinking to himself.

Peter and the six other disciples spend a night on the lake not catching any fish.  After morning breaks, a man calls out to them from the lakeshore, asking them if they caught any fish.  When they reply that they have not caught any fish, he suggests that they throw out their net from the starboard side of the boat.  The Disciples do what the man suggests, and they catch so many fish that they are unable to bring the net back into the boat with them.  Having seen a miracle like this previously, they realize that the man on the lakeshore is Jesus.  The Disciples haul the fish to the shore, where Jesus is already cooking some fish and some bread over a charcoal fire – just like the one that was burning in the high priest's courtyard where Peter denied Jesus.  They bring Jesus some of the fish they caught, and, once the fish are cooked, He says to them, “Come and have breakfast.”24


After breakfast, Jesus asks Peter, “Simon son of John, do you love me more than these?”  Peter replies, “Yes, Lord; you know that I love you.”  Jesus then says to Peter, “Feed my lambs.”  Again Jesus asks Peter, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”  Peter replies, “Yes Lord, you know that I love you.”  Jesus then says to Peter, “Tend my sheep.”  For a third time, Jesus asks Peter, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”  Deeply hurt, Peter says to Jesus, “Lord, you know everything; you know that I love you.”  Jesus then says to Peter, “Feed my sheep.”25  Three times Peter denied Jesus; three times Jesus asks Peter if he loves Him; and three times Jesus tells Peter to shepherd His people.  Peter might have been tempted to give up on himself, but Jesus never had any intention of giving up on him.  Peter might have failed, but he is still the rock on whom Jesus will build His church.

In the Church, we emphasize the importance of believing in Christ – as we should do – but it is also important to remember that Christ believes in us.26  Peter's story is also our story.  Christ sees something in each of us, as He saw something in Peter, and He calls all of us to be His disciple and to be part of the Church He is building, as he called Peter.  He would not have called us to be His disciples if He was not sure that we are up to the task.27  Christ knows that each of us will fail from time to time, as he knew that Peter would fail, but He knows that we will bounce back from failure if we give ourselves the chance, and He knows that we will eventually succeed if we do not give up.

Peter will go on to do exactly what Jesus has called him to do.  In the Acts of the Apostles, we read that, on a holy day called Pentecost, Peter will preach to a crowd of Jewish people from many nations who are gathered in Jerusalem for the festival.  On that day, three thousand people will be baptized and welcomed into the Church.28  We also read that, later on, Peter will be sent by God to minister to a Roman centurion named Cornelius and his friends and family.  He will realize that Jesus is not just the Messiah of His own people but rather the Savior of the whole world.29  Peter's actions will help pave the way for the Church to become more inclusive of all people.30

Peter will eventually lay down his life for Christ, as he said he would do.  Jesus says to Peter on the lakeshore, “Very truly, I tell you, when you were younger, you used to fasten your own belt and to go wherever you wished.  But when you grow old, you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will fasten a belt around you and take you where you do not wish to go.”31  According to Church tradition, around thirty years later, Peter will be crucified by Caesar Nero, who will scapegoat Christians for the burning of Rome.  Because Peter will not feel worthy to die the same way his Messiah died, he will insist on being crucified upside-down.32

Peter will remain faithful to Christ until death.  Jesus didn't name him “the Rock” for nothing.



John Wesley might have been tempted to give up on his calling, but the God who called him had no intention of giving up on him.  On the evening of May 24, 1738, Wesley was dragged to a Bible study on Aldersgate Street in London – by whom, we do not know.  As he sat, listening to someone read Martin Luther's commentary on the Epistle to the Romans, his heart was, in his own words, “strangely warmed.”  Looking back on his experience, he wrote in his journal, “I felt I did trust in Christ, Christ alone for my salvation; and an assurance was given me that he had taken away my sins, even mine, and saved me from the law of sin and death.”  God led Wesley out of that difficult time into an assurance he had not experienced previously.33



Christ calls all of us to take part in His redemptive work in the world.   He would not have called us if we were not up to  the task.  Inevitably each of us will fail at some point, but failure does not have to be the end of the story.  We must not give up on ourselves, for Christ never gives up on us.

Thanks be to God.


Notes:
  1. Adam Hamilton.  Revival: Faith as Wesley Lived It.  2014, Abingdon Press.  pp. 62-67
  2. Frederick A. Norwood.  The Story of American Methodism.  1974, Abingdon Press.  pp. 25-26
  3. John 21:1-3 (NRSV)
  4. John 20:19-22 (NRSV)
  5. John 1:40-42 (NRSV)
  6. Luke 5:1-3
  7. Luke 5:4-11 (NRSV)
  8. Michael D. Coogan, et al.  The New Oxford Annotated Bible, Third Edition.  2001, Oxford University Press, Inc.  New Testament p. 149
  9. Matthew 16:13-18 (NRSV)
  10. John 12:12-15 (NRSV)
  11. John 13:33 (NRSV)
  12. John 13:36-38 (NRSV)
  13. John 18:15-18
  14. John 18:25-27
  15. John 18:27
  16. John 18:1-10
  17. John 18:11
  18. Matthew 16:21 (NRSV)
  19. Matthew 16:22-23 (NRSV)
  20. Matthew 16:24 (NRSV)
  21. From “Are Ye Able” by Earl Marlatt
  22. John 6:35; 8:12; 10:11; 11:25; 14:6; 15:1 (NRSV)
  23. Joel B. Green, William H. Willimon, et al.  The Wesley Study Bible (NRSV).  2009, Abingdon Press.  p. 1319
  24. John 21:3-14 (NRSV)
  25. John 21:15-17 (NRSV)
  26. Rob Bell.  Velvet Elvis: Repainting the Christian Faith.  2005, Zondervan.  p. 134
  27. ibid.
  28. Acts 2:5-42
  29. Acts 10:1-11:18
  30. Acts 15:1-21
  31. John 21:18 (NRSV)
  32. Wikipedia: “Saint Peter”
  33. Hamilton, pp. 69-72
The Second Miraculous Draught of Fishes was painted by James Tissot in the late nineteenth century.

Sunday, May 3, 2020

Easter Perspective: A Matter of Seeing

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A Matter of Seeing

They were prevented from recognizing him.

Luke 24:16 (CEB)


Open the eyes of my heart, Lord
Open the eyes of my heart
I want to see You
I want to see You

From "Open the Eyes of My Heart" by Paul Baloche


In the Gospel of John, we read that, on the Sunday morning after Jesus was crucified, Mary Magdalene goes out to visit Jesus' tomb.  When she arrives, she finds that the tomb had been opened.  She runs to Jesus' disciples and says, "They have taken the Lord from the tomb, and we don't know where they've put him."  Two of the Disciples then go to the tomb to investigate the situation for themselves.  When Mary returns to the tomb and looks inside, she sees two angels sitting where Jesus' body had been laid.  They ask her why she is crying, and she says, "They have taken away my Lord, and I don't know where they've put him."1

Mary then turns around and encounters a man she assumes is a gardener.  He asks her why she is crying and whom she is seeking.  She says, "Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have put him and I will get him."  The supposed gardener says Mary's name, and Mary realizes that she is talking with Jesus.2

In the Gospel of Luke, we read that, on the same day, two of Jesus' followers are walking to Emmaus with their heads hung low and talking about recent events.  A fellow traveler joins them and asks them what they are discussing.  They tell him about Jesus, about their hopes that He would liberate their people from oppression, about His untimely demise, and about the news that His body was missing from the tomb.  Their fellow traveler then tells them all the things that the Scriptures foretold about their long-awaited Messiah and suggests that all of these things had to happen.3

The two followers of Jesus' reach their destination and insist that their fellow traveler stay with them for the night.  While they are all seated for dinner, the mysterious traveler takes some bread, blesses it, breaks it, and gives it to the other two.  The two, recognizing these actions, suddenly realize that they had been walking with Jesus the whole time.4


In the Gospel of John, we read that, one night later on, Peter decides to go fishing, and a number of the Disciples decide to go with him.  They spend the whole night sitting in a boat, not catching any fish.  In the morning, a man calls out to the Disciples from the seashore, asking if they have caught any fish.  They reply that they haven't caught anything, and the man tells them to throw out their net on the right side of the boat.  They do so and miraculously haul in a net full of fish.  They then realize that the man on the seashore is Jesus.5  According to Luke's Gospel, Jesus originally called a number of them to follow Him after performing a very similar miracle.6

Every year, people around the world hear these three stories during Eastertide.  What stands out to me this year about each of these stories is that, though the Risen Christ is present, people fail to recognize Him.  Some have suggested that Jesus' appearance was changed by the Resurrection, but I wonder if maybe there were other reasons that people who clearly knew Jesus could not recognize Him.  I wonder if maybe, for some reason, they were blinded to His presence.

Near the tomb, Jesus stood right in front of Mary, yet she did not recognize Him.  I wonder if maybe her grief is what kept her from recognizing Him.  She kept saying that someone had taken the Lord away, yet the Lord she was seeking was a dead man.  She did not realize that her Lord was standing right in front of her, alive and well.

On the Road to Emmaus, the two travelers walked with Jesus for miles without realizing who He was.  Perhaps they did not realize who He was because their heads were hung low in disappointment.

On the Boat, a number of the Disciples saw Jesus on the seashore, but, even though they had already seen Him alive and well at least a couple of times, they did not recognize Him.  I wonder if maybe they were blinded to His presence by a sense of failure.  They had failed to catch any fish during the night, but I think that maybe Peter decided to go fishing in the first place because he felt like a failure as a Disciple and had decided to return to his former life as a fisherman.  Before Jesus was arrested, Peter swore that he would remain faithful to Him even if it cost him his life.  A few hours later, he denied that he even knew Jesus.7

When I was a freshman in college, I watched a short-lived television show titled Joan of Arcadia.  In this show, the titular character Joan is a teenage girl who sees God.  She might see God as boy her age, a woman working in the school cafeteria, a little girl, a man walking a dog, or a number of other people.8  On the very first episode, Joan makes a comment about God's appearing to people, and God says to her, "I'm not appearing to you.  You are seeing me."9  I always thought this statement was theologically profound.

Maybe the Risen Christ is always present with us, as He was in the stories we hear around Easter, but maybe there are things in our lives like grief, disappointment, and failure that keep us from experiencing Him.  Maybe, like the people in the stories, we need to be awakened to Christ's presence in some way.  Christ awakened the frustrated Disciples to His presence with a miracle.  Christ awakened the disappointed travelers to His presence by doing what they had seen Him do in the past.10  Christ awakened the grieving Mary to His presence by simply saying her name.

As I noted previously, Easter just doesn't seem like Easter this year.  The Risen Christ is no less present in difficult times, but we might have a bit more trouble experiencing His presence.  Let us pray for eyes to see and for a wake-up call if we need one.


Notes:
  1. John 20:1-13 (CEB)
  2. John 20:14-16 (CEB)
  3. Luke 24:13-27
  4. Luke 24:28-31
  5. John 21:1-8
  6. Luke 5:1-11
  7. John 13:36-38; 18:15-18, 25-27
  8. https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0367345/
  9. https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0616128/quotes/
  10. See Luke 9:16 and Luke 22:19.
The Supper at Emmaus was painted by Caravaggio around 1601.